i soo hate wat i'm feeling right now.. this song xplain evrything.. i hope u r satisfied wif wat've u done..
I gave you all you desired All that you needed Boy, I provided I let you into my head Into my bed And that’s a privilege I had your back at the answers You took the dollars I took the chances Defended, battled and fought Cuz I thought you really loved me I don’t know where to start or where to stop No, but I know I am done I’ve had enough
So fall out of my hands Out of my heart And when you hit the ground You’ll be sorry that I’m not around I will watch you And you fall out of your mind Out of your fantasy When you hit the wall Think of me I’ll be on the top just watching you fall
You said that you were the strong one I was the girl And I was the young one I kept your feet on the ground My head in the rounds I had you You told me you were so grateful I was with you And I was so faithful Stood by in all that you said And all that you did I loved you I don’t know how to act or what to say But I know I am good I’ll be okay
And you fall out of my hands Out of my heart And when you hit the ground You’ll be sorry that I’m not around I will watch you And you fall out of your mind Out of your fantasy When you hit the wall Think of me I’ll be on the top just watching you fall I’ll be on the top just watching you fall
So fall out of my hands Out of my heart And when you hit the ground You’ll be sorry that I’m not around I will watch you And you fall out of your mind Out of your fantasy When you hit the wall Think of me I’ll be on the top just watching you fall I’ll be on the top just watching you fall
lizapitinlove 1:16:00 am
26 August 2008.
i met my ghurlfrens again but today was at my place.. nurul & eka call me up early in the morning,fer me still early in the morning lahh 10am.. haha..
sms from eka at 10:17am: Wei bgn la!!! Kite nk klua ni g ruma kau...
i was like,arrrghhhhhhh.. siang nyer korang nak dtg,aku blom puas tdo ni.. haha.. i slept late ok nowadays & noe wat she msg me at 10am but reaches my haus at 12noon almost to 1pm.. soon as they arrived here,nurul did her online test & eka can't wait to make a mess in my room.. she started to browse over my photo album first & then all the 5 sch magazines i've colleccted.. that is wer we gals start our gossips and start reminiscing all those past moments we went thru together hahaha... one of it was during the time wer our sch choir was selected to perform national day parade.. it was in the yr 2002 if i'm not wrong..kecoh,kecoh! and den blah.. blah... blahhh... supose to b gossip lahh deyy.. nurul didnt talk much abt her bf today i hope she felt better n even better in days to come.. b strong my dear gal.. maybe u can even forget about dat jerkk.. haaaahhh.. guys like dat is not worth at all syg... its not too late if u wanna back out now.. after dat nurul cooked us maggie.. weee.. padehal umah aku ade mkn tau.. instead of cooking it together she cooked it one by one,packet per packet.. she made my mom's periuk HANGUS.. haha..strange;weirdo.. haks! and den wat else.. hmm we talk about eka's marriage,talk abt being backstab alahhh alot lah u noe wen gals meet gals.. weee.... they went back at 5pm.. kejap jer.. hurhur..
later dat day,kina called me & meeting me too we met downstairs my blk.. she was with her bf.. and den come along azureen.. wat a coincidence.. she saw us lepaking frm far & den she call me to double conferm whether it was us.. haha.. i look thru her daughter's pic and she was soo,soo chubby.. haha.. gedek sehh anak kau.. haks!
;Nurul
;Hyrul Amry muke boring ajeerr..
;aniq lepak siooot...
;azureen,liza & kina
;eriza natalia,chubby kan
lizapitinlove 3:55:00 am
25 August 2008.
it has been a bad weather these days & bad moods too.. haks! well both of us met on that saturday watching the fireworks at fullerton,yah wif my family and beloved akif fiqrizan.. surprisingly he slept all the way,till the fireworks were over then he awaken.. strange ryte.. despite all those booming sounds he can still sleep peacefully.. weee.. had great fun with bf that day,he was all wet wen he reaches my house.. kesian.. mengigil die.. yahh how i wish i cud stop time and make our relationship stay dat way..evrything was fine until we drop by his previous werkplace, arrgghh.. dun wana mention wat thing lah.. but fer sure,we didnt even talk till today.. we didnt meet today,i went out alone.. biaselah,evrytime we gadoh mesti 2,2 ego.. both dun wana make the first moves.. yadah,yadah........ i'm not gonna give in again... lets c how long we can stay dis way..
to shida,i've uploaded akif latest,newest pic... hehe,which i took right b4 i post this entry.. hehe..
This is the pic i took awhile ago.. <3
lizapitinlove 2:03:00 am
23 August 2008.
weee.. met my frens jus now.. eventually not all turn up,well most were busy with work & families.. went to vivo with eka.. she n her two seater "limo" its pram actuali.. she brought along both her sons n her pram was large hehe.. we took the train there.. evryone in the cabin was like looking at us the moment we enter the cabin.. precisely it was eka's pram which attract theirs attention... as soon as we reached vivo we went to meet kina at her werkplace,we went to accompany her to have her meal.. after 1 hour of break kina had to return to her werkplace..me & eka went window shopping all around vivo.. again she and her BIGGY BIG pram.. haha.. Woooooooo.. guess who we saw..?? nurul aini lahhh seyyy.. die tgh shopping at vivo lahhh... haha! & we also saw this female actress frm jeritan sepi 3.. silent cry.... haha.. soon we met up with little miss cheerful nurul... she was frm her skool.. n not to ferget we also meet up with this "ANIMAL DIVA" haha.. yati lah.. both my former school mates.. yati is werking at this boutique call Animal.. oh yah.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY YATI!! as we reached wlds,nurul wants to get her double choc frm mc cafe,so we acompany her to civic & noe wat she can't get enuf with onli her dbl choc,die patah aik beli apple pie!! nurul,nurul...... well,nurul i hope u cud overcome all dis rlationshp thingy with him,i noe its hard but b strong baby! i'm here if u're lonely jus one call away.. so if u r reading dis cheer up ok.. he is just being a jerk,jerky jerk! on my way home fiza called me & asked me to meet her awhile cause she had prepared satay fer me...........WwwwoOoo.. mane nak dpt satay free.. haha.. Thanks fiza fer the supper.. hehe.. today,about me & bf nothing much.. he's werking & he wants to go out with me tomoro to watch fireworks.... this year we didnt even go to atleast one of those rehearsal firework... kluar ngn pompan lain blehhh.. cibeh.. haha!! errrghhh.. maseh paranoid!!! kau buat lagi kau jage! well its 5am,i think i shud call it a day now.. yahh,had wonderful time with peeps jus now,i jus didnt think abt my probs while with dem.. at the end of the day its still frens & family who can brighten up ur day especially during ur bickerings with boyfie.. huurrrrrrrr......
Aniq,eka's son,jus love to take candid pics
see! i told u...
Sape tuh? sape tuh?? hehe
lizapitinlove 4:11:00 am
21 August 2008.
been having dis body ache all around me.. i think i'm dying.. geeee... it started from the bottom of my leg then up to the neck... such a pain.. been having sleepless night.. ya,ya.. thinking abt bf & evrything.. bla.. bla.. bla... stop it liza,stop thinking about it.. been spending both of his off days with him.. i still have this mindset that he wun change... ermmm.. i hate this feelings.. i had to leave evrything behind me to control my emotions my frustrations towards this and most important is to prevent myself frm feeling so FUCKED UP like dis.. EEerrgghhh.. at the end of the day it looks like me who desperately trying to get ur attention.. pls lahh.. sometime i jus wana noe wat is on ur mind and do u really think abt me? abt us? weneva i ask about our relationship u give me unconvincing answer,u never give me assurance that ur answer are true,u gave me doubts.. i know u r lying i know u wana hide it frm me.. but ni matter how deep u r hiding it I WILL KNOW!! i've been thru it shafiq.. so plsss...
willl be meeting eka & nurul tomoro.. its been long since we met each other.. yahh evryone seems busy with their own thingy... with werk,husband and kids.. it was like only yesterday wen we studied at the libry together and today most of my frens are married.. wuhhhooo.. so hepi fer dem..
lizapitinlove 11:47:00 pm
20 August 2008.
today is my lazy day.. hehe.. b4 i went to sleep yest i was like making plans fer today.. thought of cleaning up my room,rearranging the furniture and stuff but...................... i onli slept thru out.. hehe.. and also today akif was like pissing me off.. cry,cry dun wanna sleep.. iritating sehh hehe.. but still cute lah.. well i began to slowly ferget evrything wats bf had done.. infront of him i pretended as if i'm ok.. but actually i'm not yet ok lahh... we went out again yesterday.. went to my previous werk place at ikea tampines poor akif tummy ache berak dlm bus and it stinks hehe.. b4 dat we had lunch at cosway point banquet den bought sumthing fer nenek as my nenek oso werking at tamp ikea.. after we shop at both ikea and giant (mcm phm eh beli brg2 pat sane..mcm dade ruma sendiri gitu.. hehe) we went home by cabby.. cause we had soo much to carry and it was raining heavily.. upon reaching home i cooked noodles fer bf.. haiizzz.. during the silent meal,my mind sudenly thoughts of his betrayal.. but i remained calm i put a up fake smile as if evrything is back to normal... but bf i'm not OKAY... not until u really prove to me u'll change.. i wana lead a happy life.. i hate that i loved him soo much.. i hate dat the person closest to me is the one who hurt me the most.. but i'm being strong here.. Oh yah.. thnks kak yatie fer ur motivation.. thnks shida fer ur concern.. keep on reading okaes..
lizapitinlove 12:47:00 am
18 August 2008.
Yesterday was our 21st Month Annivesary.. i was waiting all along fer him to atleast say to me "hey u nari anny kite lah..." or even better wish me... at the same day his family had organise a kenduri and the day was busy,pendemonium,lots of distraction..so i decided to just wait n wait wen the right comes i'm sure he'll wish me.. but as soon as he send me home he wants to quickly go home too.. soon as he reaches home he called me.. and den he wants to sleep.. its shows dat he didnt even bother.. our relationship has no more meaning to him anymore.. and soon i will fell dat way too.. i jus want him to rmmbr sia.. aftr wat he had done to me.. this day means alot to me.. fer me to actuali jugde his sincerity of apologising and repent to his mistake.. but no he's just the"i dont even bother kinda guy".. making dis relationship worst,making me realise i've put empty hopes all dis while... dis may seems a small matter to some but to me it means alot..
lizapitinlove 1:35:00 pm
13 August 2008.
well guys i met shafiq jus now,i duno y i agree upon meeting him whereas i'm still mad,frustrated with him.. n i duno if i shud oso still cal him bf.. the day b4 he kept msging me saying sori n so on.. i even asked fer brek up but he insisted on it.. i duno y he insisted on it.. he kept saying he loves me but at the same time he betray me.. day b4 he wanted to acompany me collect my hp frm service centre at bishan.. but i rejected his offer.. i went alone,koz i also need a time to b alone.. n i still dun wan to c his face! he did such a disgrace to me sia... den he msg me ask me to meet him.. to solve things.. yahh to him this is such a small matter.. he got the game n i got the pain.. to him buat aku senyum je aku da ok ahh.. luka di jari boleh nmpk,luka di hati sape yg tau... haizz.. he fetch me first frm home den we went to arab st again to buy xtra kain fer his dad & marzuqi so called his adek sedare lahh.. after dat had lunch at banquet raffles hospital.. sakina kol my hp "liza kau katne?aku kat vista ni mcm biase ahh" haha.. rindu kau lah kina.. meet sum other day k.. after lunch me & shafiq went to bugis.. he bought me some clothes && he also bought akif jumpsuit.. haha.. cute! we bumped into alot of his camp mates... macam reunion.. asal tak terserempak dgn pompan tu je ehh... keras die pat situ.. haizz shafiq2.. tgk ape aku buat mesti aku teringat alik perbuatan kejam kau tu... EERRRRGGHH!!
after bugis we went to marina,walk,walk,walk.. both we exhausted we had dinner at macdonalds.. and den walk again.. i thought he wud bring me to a place wer we can talk and sort things out between us.. apologising to me straight to my face ke.. ni tak.. haizzz.. hmm.. maybe i expect too much but sialahh u made a big mistake sia.. biggest of all sia.. n u xpect me to fogive && foget jus like dat... impossible beybeh... sampai lobang kubor aku ingat!! we went home as shafiq had to werk the day after.. upon reaching home he lepak awhile at my haus,played with akif and den went home... haiiz.. i still cant get it out of mind.. even after spending the whole day with him.. i felt dat i dun belong to him anymore felt dat he belongs to sumone else n i musnt count on him anymore.. argh!!
lizapitinlove 2:03:00 am
10 August 2008.
This isnt the first,second or even the third.. well to b true its a countless time that he betrays me again.. i can't believe after wat we went thru,evrything dat we eva xperienced he still got the urge to betray me.. god noes how painful i'm feeling inside.. my heart broke! gosh he still wants to fool around with me.. toying with my feelings.. how great do u feel hurting ppl feelings.. betraying someone who loves u.. this few weeks i've been having dis strange feelings i even dreamt dat he got another affair behind my back... n yes dat dream became reality.. we went to arab st last friday to buy our Hari Raya suit.. i cant believe he uses his mom too to cover up his ass fer him.. he uses his mom fone to sms dat gerl dat he "fergot to bring his fone" haks! just to make sure dat gerl doesnt sms him la wen i'm around.. good trick shafiq! but unfortunately i caught u... too bad.. u aint gd enuf.. on the way home i actuali cried in the taxi b4 even knowing the truth.. at home i text him & ask him 2 b frank with me.. instead of telling the truth he denied it and says i'm full of shit! i decided to find out the truth myself.. i text that gal & we talked awhile... goshhhhh!!!! wat a fucked up relationship i hav!! thnks to u shafiq.. i'm soo hurt & depressed.. the day after i went out wif family it national day & the day after is my mom burfday.. which is today lahhh hehe.. well i'm trying to move on and live my life w/o him.. i wana b strong.. i dun need him to survive... he will never change! i hate it.. the day before i caught him having affairs we went to orchard trying to spend time like we always do.. we r not like couples at all.. we didnt sing to the same tune no more.. didnt laugh to the same joke anymore....i tried to get his attention hug him,n he jus ignores me.... i felt rejected... we went to tcc to hav a drink and a cake... instead of us talking to each other he played his psp.....as if i dun exist... well dats me n him... an almost 2yrs of rlationship he blew it off just like dat.. I HATE HIM.... Oh yah.. its also akif first day of having a pacifier in his mouth.. hehehe.. damn cute baby!
lizapitinlove 5:19:00 pm
07 August 2008.
yes i'm back for good.. hehe.. its been 3 month since my last post.. yah i do miss blogging theres like soooooo much to say and soo,soo much too express.. i've been missing lately fer some reasons.. busy lah dey.. haha.. n den wen free forgot about wat to blog haha.. typical.. well preactically fer the month of april and may i was in a conflict wif my mom due to some misunderstanding during the nite of ayu's bday dinner celebration.. i put up at dad's place fer dat period of time until one day wen my mom arranged fer a meet up he ask my bro to bring me to her... yahhh there was wen we make it up to each other.. sal ni takyah cite panjang2 ahh ekh.. lau nak citekan da leh jadik script drama jeritan sepi 4.. hehe.. well there's alot more hepen on that particular month.. yah dat period of time i was missing bf badly.. he's still in camp and seldom had time to cling on to the fone to hav a long chat..
as fer june & july.. dad's wedding.. wuhhooo.. new mom.. got a stepmother.. at last after a few years of divorced my dad had finally found someone new.. on 1st June 2008 both of them are legally married.. congratulations dad.. so happy fer you..
they had prepared two wedding ceremony.. one is at singapore itself 1st june.. and the second one is at malacca.. which is my stepmom hometown.. that falls the week after 6th and 7th June.. After dat week it was bf burfday.. his 20th birthday to be precise..da tua lahh syg.. hehe.. da 20sen.. kuakuakua... thank god it falls on friday on the date dat he booked out.. i bought a bday cake fer him and brought it to his haus so dat we cud celebrate it together with his mom.. and den we went out at night.. i oso bought bf this volcom belt.. at first i was like soo confused,so in dilema dun noe wat to buy 4 his bday.. but den i remmember abbt dis belt which i saw long ago and i simply like it.. furthermore bf also needs a new belt badly.. hehe..well i hope he like it.. his parents bought him a g shock watch.. the week after we went out to celeb our 19th mth anny.. i miss those days where we used to celeb evry each month of our anny...
next,the arrival of someone new to our family besides my stepmom,new born babyboy akif.. his presence had made us family even happier,lively.. he add lights to the family.. evryone in the house pays much of a attention to him... of coz.. he is jus simply cute a adorable.. hehe.. there's more of his pic uploaded in my frenster profile.. do hav a look...
Akif Fiqrizan
22 June 2008
3.1kg
errmm,as fer me & bf we r doing quite well lately.. he's been posted out to clementi fire station yah he's a fire fighter.. suke lah die.. depan clementi ite...!! errghh.. better behave.. i'm actually disapointed in myself fer not being able to attend his p.o.p night.. i'm still thinking about it ok... but bf i'm proud of u.. haizz.. lately i've been feeling strange as if bf is keeping sumthing frm me.. errr.. i jus hope he b frank wif me be it good or no good.. sometimes i even feel dat we r fading away.. but not so much lahh.. uughh.. maybe its just my sentimental emotions.. or maybe its jus bkoz of our time spent nowadays r not like b4.. he gets 2days off fer evry 24hours of werk.. first dat off he's tired and tend to hav his rest early.. then the second day off spend time oso but also he has to hav an early night fer werk the day after.. well i guess its jus bkoz i missed him badly lahh.. oh yah bf is enrolling for car license.. yeppi.. best.. gd luck syg!!
i just had so many to say,so many to talk about but jus cant seem to put it in words... well will update again soon.. promised.. hehe..by the way congratulations to...
kak norsiah fer ur new born Putri Syazana
aunt fara fer ur new born Ellya Myresha
azureen fer ur new born Eriza Natalia
hartika fer ur new born Hyrul Amry
lizapitinlove 1:15:00 am
I'm Yours.
L.I.Z.A.P.I.T
HEYho!
tween-tee.
born 1st apriL 89.
Loved DARK CHOC.
Loved BB SHAFIQ.
& Precious Akif Fiqrizan.
Lookin ferwad to my wedding. wee
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