This isnt the first,second or even the third.. well to b true its a countless time that he betrays me again.. i can't believe after wat we went thru,evrything dat we eva xperienced he still got the urge to betray me.. god noes how painful i'm feeling inside.. my heart broke! gosh he still wants to fool around with me.. toying with my feelings.. how great do u feel hurting ppl feelings.. betraying someone who loves u.. this few weeks i've been having dis strange feelings i even dreamt dat he got another affair behind my back... n yes dat dream became reality.. we went to arab st last friday to buy our Hari Raya suit.. i cant believe he uses his mom too to cover up his ass fer him.. he uses his mom fone to sms dat gerl dat he "fergot to bring his fone" haks! just to make sure dat gerl doesnt sms him la wen i'm around.. good trick shafiq! but unfortunately i caught u... too bad.. u aint gd enuf.. on the way home i actuali cried in the taxi b4 even knowing the truth.. at home i text him & ask him 2 b frank with me.. instead of telling the truth he denied it and says i'm full of shit! i decided to find out the truth myself.. i text that gal & we talked awhile... goshhhhh!!!! wat a fucked up relationship i hav!! thnks to u shafiq.. i'm soo hurt & depressed.. the day after i went out wif family it national day & the day after is my mom burfday.. which is today lahhh hehe.. well i'm trying to move on and live my life w/o him.. i wana b strong.. i dun need him to survive... he will never change! i hate it.. the day before i caught him having affairs we went to orchard trying to spend time like we always do.. we r not like couples at all.. we didnt sing to the same tune no more.. didnt laugh to the same joke anymore....i tried to get his attention hug him,n he jus ignores me.... i felt rejected... we went to tcc to hav a drink and a cake... instead of us talking to each other he played his psp.....as if i dun exist... well dats me n him... an almost 2yrs of rlationship he blew it off just like dat.. I HATE HIM.... Oh yah.. its also akif first day of having a pacifier in his mouth.. hehehe.. damn cute baby! |
