was jus browsing thru my pics with bf n suddenly rmmber abt our past.. all those moments we use to have together.. how we knew each other.. our first date! ahhaaa!! i wun ferget dat..used to be mushy2 at timess.. yeah it was all sweet at first && i kinda miss all that.. hmm.. had a short conversation on the fone with him jus now after he sent me home.. nothing much said.. to put it in word today was kinda bored actuali..been breaking fast with his family again today,today we had mee siam & lots,lots more... tummy was full,and belly is huge!! HAHA... this reminds me of last year,where me & bf tak puase and was painting his room.. got tired and we pretend dat we had something to buy but actualy we went down to fajar to hav a ciggy and a drink.. i remmber it was bandung.. we sit by a staircase wer no one can c us.. yah i noe its uncool to some,but its even more uncool to step terror puffing ur ciggy away infront of many ppl especially our ppl... well actually i miss bf too much lahh..but we meet almost evry of his off days,but i still miss him.. maybe wat i actually miss is the time wen b4 bf serve his ns,dat was the best part of us.. the perfect part was after his bday,wer i had to chose btween 2 guys & i chose him!.. that was wen i can really feel he loved me,the wanted kind of feeling..yes i miss those.. we used to meet EVERYDAY!! clubs,movies,late meals,fetching him frm werk,riding with his mates,changi hospital,xploring.... "asal u tarik i!!" HAHA.. haiissshhh... the most precious thing he eva gave me was this bear from build-a-bear which was name WAN SHAQRIZAN.. i told him once dat if eva i had a son i wana name it wan shaqrizan.. & out of the blue he bought me this bear during his meal time while still werking at pizza hut.. how touching... mmwackss.. how i wish i cud turn back time and stop it.. =) i jus had soo much things to say abt us today....its getting exiciting hehe.. but its like difficult fer me to put it in words..i like it wen bf stops giving me trouble,i like it wen bf kud understand me.. && i like it wen bf tries to make it up to me even after i "step jual mahal" hehe.. but the most,most,most thing dat i hate is being betrayed!! i'm trying to ferget evrything but it keeps on coming.. i cant still get over it.. ok,ok stop it k.. well i jus wish bf had a lesson learnt.. well both of us had made a mistake to each other & i hope he had put a FOOLSTOP to it jus like i did.. i dun wana repeat the same mistake and end up losing each other.. i cherish evry moment we had together be it good or bad.. or be it having to walk on a muddy field,crossing by the so called "expressway" waaalaauu... anta nyawa sehh i dun even wana mention it haha.. its past sahur time n bf havent called..usually he'd called.. hmm.. nemind..

bf i love u..
i jus want things to get back to how we used to..