wee.. had a double date jus now.. me wif bf & adan wif fifie.. its been awhile since we meet dem.. bf reached my house at 3plus but its still early to go out as adan is werking up till 6pm.. at 5 i got changed and we went out by 5.30 we meet adan at his werkplace and fetch fifie.. its 6plus already we went to west coast to brek our fast there.. i had mutton chop.. hehehehe... after meal we headed to geylang.. it wasnt as packed as wat i expected it to b.. maybe its bcoz its weekdays or all the minah2 and mats2 are on off duties.. hehe.. we didnt shop fer anything there besides fer foods.. we especially MUST buy deng-deng.. i was craving fer my butter prawns but there isnt any this year hurhur... i clearly remembered last year weneva me n bf wen to geylang i DIE-DIE MUST BUY the butter prawn.. and both of us wud share it at my voideck,not to ferget the stray cats there.. we shared the prawns with dem too! hehe.. bf actually doesnt/cant/dislike eating prawns but... ahaks! after i forced him to get a taste of it,he says "ehh sedaap ahh" haha.. c i can fully remember evry moment of us.. how sweet am i.. oh well,while we were window shoping theres dis guy laughing his heart out,i got curious and look at him,he wanted to buy womens legging.. wat the heck a guy want to do with legging bf notice me watching him and his remarkes was (i duno if he was joking lah) but..

"suke kau eh tgk jantan.."
"i tak macam u ok!"
"eh,eh lain lah kalau i yg ckp i tak mcm u"
"u jgn same kan i dgn u! prangai i dgn u way too different"
he's trying to say somethng but i interupted him
"no u dgr ckp i our character is jauh berbeza!"

the green text was wat i exclaimed to him,i dunno y out of a sudden i get like soo pissed off by him givin me that remarked i jus wana make it clear to him that all this while i've been faithful to him really loyal to him! only god knows... i pretend to be ok dat moment but actuali i was like errgghh! geram siak... die yg slalu prangai sehh.. i actualy hated being betrayed by the person i love most which is him... i've been forgiving him fer his evry mistake and there he goes repeating it,creating a mess in our relationship... i really really hope one day he will realised his damn mistake & never,never,never,ever,ever...... repeat it again... somehow,it jus makes me feel this "dendam" kinda feeling i dun like it.. i jus wana loved him... forever....i dunno how did i managed to get myself to pull thru,b strong and continue our almost 2years of relationship despite all those 3rd parties he involve so far.. i'am trying hard to ferget evrything and move on.. i keep thinking abt our future how wud we be like in maybe 5years time.. will we still be together,will we end up with marriage..... well bf if u are reading dis the answer is in YOU.. u jollywell noe how much dis relationshps means to me.. sometimes i can c dat u r proving to me dat u gonna change but somehow i can also c that u r actualy jus trying to make it up to me.. u've yet to changed ur number! & usualy at sahur time u will call me,wen u reached ur werkplace u will text me.. but y the sudden change? yes im paranoid! its simply bcoz u've cheated me countless of times.. u've given me the worst nightmare ever,i hope thats the last as i truly love u and wana spend the rest of my life with you......... i'm sorry if any of my words offended u in any way but i jus wana create an impact on u.. i wan u not to like any other gals,i want u to only love me..